Old Father, Artificer - Stand me now and ever in good stead.

i miss her (ms. johnston). i miss him (patrick). i miss it (london). i miss them (my soulmates).

and, id be due in about two weeks.

what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if what if

i need my books right now - but i dont have much time, and even if i did, i can only handle them in small doses. they are, at once, too much and not enough of her.

but i do have to pull myself together - they are gone and i am here. and we all owe a death. but we all owe a life too.

i owe two.