p.s.

just a moment ago, i had to give my cell phone and my house phone to my mother so i wouldnt call him.

its kind of like being a cop and turning in your gun...you can no longer be trusted with it. i am a horrible horrible person...this was all my idea. and if i could have it all back, i wouldnt want it. and i have been a hypocrite beyond belief anyway....but let's face it....certain areas im maturing in, and that is great...but there are other areas where i am still a five year old who doesnt like to share. and an oldest child who thinks the world revolves around her and that all the world should bend to her will.


(note: i might have gotten that idea because as long as i have been alive....all the world has, in fact, bent to my will. i am a verrrrrry persuasive little girl)